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Fahx
24 November 2009 @ 05:35 pm
Sigh  
I am not one who falls for the whole "opposites attract" shit. I love a good disagreement but not with the person who is suppose to spend the rest of their lives with me- and I with them. I want my partner to be on my side, see where I am coming from, to have my back. I am so sick and tired of going into one of my little rants just to have him fucking argue with me. Who the hell am I suppose to vent to if NOT my fucking partner?! I find myself keeping my mouth shut because I don't need him arguing with me, I want him to understand me. So many people are going to say that it's good, it's healthy...fuck that. I get my debates outside of my relationship but when I come home I want someone to give me points that help my argument and make points that I may not have thought of yet, I want to know that the man I live with is on my side and shares my mentality. He can have his own opinions of course, I am not trying to say that but I get so aggravated when I just want someone to talk to who isn't going to fucking argue with me because I get that everywhere else. I am kind of surprised that I didn't notive this before I got married because this is almost a deal breaker for me. Why can't my house be my fucking sactuary. It doesn't help that I practically have no friends since they all moved after we graduated college and I am stuck here in this shit hole town waiting for him to finish school. I don't have any friends to talk to and apparently my partner doesn't fill that fucking role either.
 
 
Current Location: Clovis
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
Current Music: Gnarles Barkley
 
 
Fahx
24 November 2009 @ 05:24 pm
Black Friday is known for its deals and steals. What items are you hoping to find in the stores this Friday?

I am not crazy enough to venture out on Black Friday. There are just as many good deals online and I can still maintain my sanity...and safety for that matter.
 
 
Fahx
07 February 2009 @ 02:11 am
I love my husband, he's a great guy, but I knew I was asking for trouble.  How many times I sit there at night wishing I was in bed in a house I had never been in sleeping next to that nights lay?  I didn't think I would miss the lifestyle, free love, free sex, no ties.  I thought I was ready for a closed relationship, then about 2 years later I start getting a bit of wanderlust.  I thought I could fight it, and I have been so far, but it's a war I'm failing.  There's this guy and he wants me, and I want him.  He's hot, he's funny...I'm not looking to leave my husband, I have a pretty good emotional relationship with him, but I want to have sex with any one I want, any time I want.  I am so selfish, wanting both worlds...the trust and emotional companionship I get with my husband, but the excitement and freedom to be the sexual creature that I am.  I'm a predator, and I'm in captivity being fed the same beef every day...well, I want to sample other..."meats".  I get bored.  I am bored.  My husband has made me cum in months, and he knows it, and he hates it, but what's there to do.  I am fighting these urges, but I'm weak...its so wrong, its so right.  ...I may just take the risk...

I would really like to have another mans hands all over me

And I would really like to have my hands all over another man
 
 
Current Location: den
Current Mood: hornyhorny
 
 
Fahx
05 November 2008 @ 02:26 pm
This is step one in religious doctrine dictating government policy.

I am glad to have read that there are already legal actions being planned, but this is what i think should be done.

Prop 8 was funded by churches, untaxed bodies, this means that money was not taxed.  So, money that the government is not allowed by law to touch, funded governmental policy, which is absolutely intolerable.  Here is the change that I call for, churches need to be taxed.  Obviously the line between church and state no longer exists since it has been allowed for religious doctrine to control aspects of the government that churches should never have been allowed any where near.  So, I call that churches have there tax exempt status revoked, at least the religions that decided that they want to play a role in the government and policy making.  They will no longer be considered "churches" but "businesses" and will have to follow all guidelines set forth for businesses.  They can then play a role in law, but no longer have the protection of being a "church". 

My hat goes off to the Catholic Church in this situation.  Anyone that knows me, knows that this is a big deal.  They opposed Prop 8.  As much as I may disagree with their religious doctrine, I have the up-most respect for the way they handle themselves in these political matters.  From my observations over the years, they seem to have the mentality of "we'll keep our noses out of your business if you keep your noses out of ours" and as far as I am concerned that is the way churches should be.
 
 
Fahx
28 September 2008 @ 03:15 am
Should church and state always be separate? Why or why not? What should the nature of their relationship be?
I find it very distressing that there are people who have answered 'No' to this question.  There is not a doubt in my mind that church and state must remain separate- at all times.  Who is to say that society requires religion to maintain a set of morals?  I am in no way religious, and atheist, I suppose, is the easiest way to describe me as far as this forum is concerned.  The fact that I am an 'atheist' though, does not mean I am running around the world, raping, killing, stealing, dishonoring my family, coveting my neighbor, eating meat (I actually do that though), doing drugs, breaking laws...

I live my life, trying to better myself as a human being.  I contribute to charities (My sister and I participated in the Wiggle Waggle Walk on Saturday which raises money for a local no-kill animal shelter).  I love to learn and expand my mind, learn about cultures, and try to respect peoples differences.  I try to live my life honestly and to it's fullest.  I don't do illegal drugs.

Many crimes have been committed by people who would consider themselves religious.  Look at all the people in jail getting their in-house ink of Jesus on the cross, Mary, a cross, and angel, what have you.

In addition, there are so many different types of religion, so many different beliefs, even if you take Christianity which is a popular religion in the states, there are so many different sect with their own little special beliefs.

We should in no way invade peoples personal lives.  Our gov't as it is already has too much religion incorporated into it.  Our gov't should be looking at things in regards to the safety of our country and our foreign politics.  Abortions are not really a security risk to this country, reading Harry Potter won't lead our kids to magick related crimes (there are people who think this and have banned Harry Potter- I never read Harry Potter but the burning of any book is rediculous.  I think the Bible in the whole history of the world has caused more problems than any other book, but do you see my calling for a book burning? NO!)  Religion has an issue with remaining unbiased, and with so many cultural differences in this country, a melding of church and state would be disastorous.

I am not saying the religion should be outlawed, but just as religions don't like people telling them how they should act or what they think or what they can and cannot do, people don't want to hear it from religion either.  Gov't should only be involved when a religion begins to advocate actions that go against the basic foundation and laws of this country (as in interfering with people who themselves are following a way of life that they so see fit-ie bombing abortion clinics, killing doctors, attacking people at planned parent hood, calling for book bans etc) just as religion should should stay out of the Gov't.  Also, I do think that people who willingly and knowingly enter a relion, cult, whatever that have certain acts- like...i don't know...blood letting, beatings, whatever then let them do it) Its when they force it onto other people that I have a problem.

I apologize if my train of thought is at all spaztic...it is somewhat late so I may be all over the place.

 
 
Current Music: Sarah Brightman
 
 
 
Fahx
27 September 2008 @ 05:37 pm
In celebration of R.E.A.D. in America Day, tell us about what you're reading. How is reading important to you? What would you recommend to others?
Reading is very important in my opinion, it works out your brain (and yes, your brain needs exercise as well) and it can improve your language skills as well.  Spelling, grammar, diction, syntax, and it can expand your vernacular.  Reading, though, is bad for your eyes so remember to take a break.  Right now, I am just taking a refresher course and re-reading parts of my Solitary Practical Magick book, doing some light reading on candle magick, getting a shopping list together.  (I don't consider myself a witch though btw, but I do practice certain parts b/c I do believe in the power of symbolism- candles, incantations and all that good stuff are a really good way of focusing your mind, plus my American Indian heritage has basically ingrained some of these ideas into my psyche.  I myself, don't believe in any gods as society generally defines the word). 

Now, lets see about books I would recommend...

-The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
-Sarah by Marek Halter
-1984 by George Orwell
-A Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
-Animal Farm by George Orwell
-V for Vendetta by Alan Moore
-Kiss My Tiara: How to Rule the World as a Smartmouth Goddess by Susan Jane Gilman
-The Birth of Venus by Sarah Dunant
-Girl with a Peal Earring by Tracy Chevalier

That's all that I can think of right now off the top of my head.





 



 
 
Current Music: The Birthday Massacre
 
 
Fahx
25 September 2008 @ 10:02 pm
Today's National One Hit Wonder Day. Whole albums or entire ouvres can be quite impressive, but more often than not, individual songs have the largest impact on us. Which one hit wonders have played a major role in your life?
Played a major role in my life?  Uh, there may be songs that I really enjoy, but I cannot honestly or seriously sit here and say that a song has played a role in my life.  I do, however, choose to play along, and I am more than willing to list a few one hit wonders that I have thoroughly enjoyed.  I also want to give mention to some songs I haven't really seen mentioned yet, to bring light to a few songs that may have been tossed into the shadows.  Also, a lot of people are mentioning older songs, mainly from the 80's.  There are other decades with their own one hit wonders.  I glad to see Chubbawamba mentioned in some answers though.  The songs are in order of ones that I enjoyed to most to ones that I did not enjoy as much...in comparison to other songs on this list, not my favorite songs of ALL TIME.

1.  All the things she said= t.A.T.u
2.  Blue (Da Ba Dee)=Eiffle 65
3.  The Middle=Jimmy Eat World
4.  BYOB=System of a Down (yes, even if they are great...they are still a one hit wonder)
5.  Miss Murder=AFI

Alright, 5 is a good number, so I will leave the list at that.  No, I don't have a problem with 80's song, I like a lot of the stuff out of the 80's, but almost everyone is going to have an 80's song mentioned, even when I read 'one hit wonder' my mind automatically time traveled to the 80's.  So, there's my list of more recent one hit wonders.  I can't get much more recent that that, b/c around the time Miss Murder came out (2006 if I am not mistaken) I stopped listening to the radio completely, no joke.  Plus, any more recent than that, I don't think you could honestly refer to something as a one hit wonder, but if you haven't had any top songs in the last 2 years, I think it is safe to assume.

 
 
Current Music: Flogging Molly
 
 
Fahx
25 September 2008 @ 12:54 am
My rant on TaxesCollapse )
 
 
Fahx
22 September 2008 @ 12:33 am
I am too often sitting in a dark corner of my room, sobbing, pondering, restraining, hiding.  Sobbing because I am at a loss, at a place that I am unhappy, I am so much less of a person that I wanted to be at this point in my life.  Pondering how I can handle these situations, how I can get out, if I should try, how I should deal with myself, over what I should say, if I should say anything.  Restraining myself from screaming, from hurting, from resorting to old habits, from running away.  Hiding from everything and everyone, including myself.  I am nowhere near the person I know I am, how I want to be.  I can't be who I am, who I want to be.  I live in a world where my kind is looked down upon, I live in a world that doesn't have enough foundation to support the weight of my intelligence, I live in a world that doesn't have the framework to stand up against the intensity of me.  I live in a world that claims to support uniqueness but attempts to destroy all those who do not conform.  I am surrounded by people who are offended by anything that isn't like them.  Different hair, different skin, different beliefs, different lifestyles, different makeup, piercings, clothes, nakedness, personality.  Everyone offended by everyone.  I currently work in retail where this is all that I see all day, conformity.  It saddens me to see people punished for their uniqueness.  I wish I could walk into a store and see the various cultures and personalities and remind myself that we all have something special to offer this world. 
 
 
Fahx
04 September 2008 @ 02:49 am
September is Pleasure Your Mate Month. Tell us: how do you like to pleasure your mate?
How funny that I log onto livejournal after having a little fight with my boyfriend that I see this as the Writer's Block question.  I find that quite humorous.  I don't feel like answering this question, it just makes me angry considering my given state of mind at the moment.
 
 
Current Music: Combichrist